The three years that God blessed me with you, was way too short. A few months ago I asked you what your goals, dreams, direction/purpose was for your life. You quickly answered, "To make all YOUR dreams come true". You knew that there were things that needed to be completed that I could not accomplish on my own - you said "that's what I'm here for - I want to make your dreams come true with your horses". No matter what walk of life, I never met anyone like you - giving up your whole life for me. I couldn't understand how anyone could be so giving, you taught me a lot when it comes to this. You taught me the true meaning of giving.

I have so many loving memories. I remember one evening I pulled into the driveway and you came running from the barn. I was afraid that something had happened to one of the horses. I asked you what was wrong. You came up to me and said "Nothing is wrong. I just came running to give my baby a kiss". I will always cherish the trip out west. That thirty days on the road - truck, trailer, horses. We went all the way to Yellowstone stopping along the way - wherever we wanted - amongst all the beauty and rode our horses (Tetons, Yellowstone, Jackson Hole, Badlands, Black Hills). I am SO glad we took the time to do the trip. You took the front wheel off your Harley so that it could fit in the back of the truck. When we got to Sturgis, the Rally was going on, you put it back together and we rode through the town, we didn't stay long it was a "bit much" for me.

Showing the IBHA Circuit I could have never accomplished what I did in the 2005 show season without you. You were looking forward to the 2006 season. Had all your show clothes bought. You enjoyed it as much as I did. You're wearing one of those favorite shirts in Heaven now.

We had plane tickets to fly to California, but you didn't make the trip with me. It was hard for me to make the trip without you, but everyone thought it was best. I don't know what's best - - I only feel HURT. It seems as if there is nowhere to turn and no way out. Going on without you will be the hardest thing I've had to do in life. Everything I did you were always right beside me and now I'm so alone.

When I had a bad day - you would listen quietly and just your presence made it all better.

We made it through some really rough times. I knew that if we could make it through all that......... we would make it through the rest of our lives together. You commented - "What do you think we will look like when we get old"? I would say "I'm going to get old and ugly - you'll be handsome and distinguished".

I loved you with all I had within me to Love and you loved me the same way in return. We probably would have gotten married in California. Nine days before the trip you left me forever.

You were the most loving, kind and hard working man I have ever come across. There was no end to your giving. This is so hard for me to understand. I am turning to God for help. I know that you are in a much better place in Heaven, but you will be sadly missed. May God give me strength to make it through this.